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Angela

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دیوار کی بجائے سر ٹوٹنے کی دُعا مانگیئے، ۔۔۔
خدا سر اور دستار سلامت رکھے۔۔۔
دیوار کا کیا ہے، ٹوٹ جائے گی تو مستری سے مرمت کروالیں گے آپ کے خرچے سے۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔
 
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Angela

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ویرانی۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔۔

زندگی تجھ سے بھی کیا خوب تعلق ہے مِرا
جیسے سوکھے ہوئے پتے سے ہوا کا رشتہ
 
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Angela

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How r u bro?
Tomorrow, I'm going for treatment. You told me to tell you before I left. So, I'm just stepping forward for a new life, may be. Becoz, I want to prepare myself for that day when Almighty will ask me about my life, and I don't want to make my Mom sad :( now, I don't want to give my best part of life to wrong people anymore. I have decided to live my life, Myself. :) I have promised myself that I will take care of myself from now on. -ـ- I have decided to smile for my family :( The family, who loves me more than everything. So I'll live happy for those who want to see me happy. Literally , I have forgotten how to smile -_- even I searched on internet that how can I make pose for smile :| and may be anybody can't understand how panic it is :) but, from last two days, I'm practicing to smile, I'm training my face to make right pose for smile. This is just for satisfaction for my family, becoz I don't want to create trouble for them anymore. so, I have decided to get rid of every self-made problems .. I'm quitting everything. each and everything which hurts me :( which added pain to my life and still adding more and more pain -_- . After my treatment, You'll see an Angela, Who will be completely changed :) New for you, but the Old one, as you don't know Old Angela :( I'm really missing her nowadays :( I'll not be completely that old Angela, but still, It will be improved version of ''This Angela''. And sooon, I'll smile with all my real piece and inner happiness. If even life has given me such an opportunity.......! -_-
Because, you know? Life chases after someone until life is lifted. When the pride of life is taken care of. But as soon as one desires life, and even the slightest desire to live arises in one's heart, then understand, that is where life ends. :) And the passion of life is to drive one away. With this condition, in spite of all the bitterness of running away, one should not stop, one should just complete the journey, even if one has to drag. :(
I'll be back soon, but even if it's possible -_- ...
Because, this journey that I am going to do tomorrow, may be the last one, and my return, may not be possible. But it may also be that، this journey will pave the way for new destinations for me. Anything can happen ... By the way, You are all very nice ... and I think, I am not so good that someone after me will even remember me. :) And maybe that's what I want everyone to forget about me. -_- And I also want to forget a lot of things. If I came back I would like to spend my new life with only a few people, just with my family. I had been having a Seizure of Silent for many days. -_- But the mood was better today, I would have thought to talk to you people. but fantasy and Tanhayi Aapa are not here: ( I thought I'd do a few things.) Well, thank you for enduring me, maybe my behavior has been annoying for you guys. Well, Fantasy doesn't like to write either, so I leave it at that and I get disappear somewhere in my own world -_- Be happy, and keep others happy too. See you soon, If God willing. :) Hoping for the best. !
 

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... I have decided to live my life, Myself. :) I have promised myself that I will take care of myself from now on. -ـ- I have decided to smile for my family :( The family, who loves me more than everything. So I'll live happy for those who want to see me happy.
That's all you need, that's the spirit, go and have proper treatment and come back with a broad smile on your face. May Allah Pak bless you with health and happiness, we will wait for you. You will be in our prayers all the time :)
 
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Angela

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That's all you need, that's the spirit,
kiya btayen aap ko ..😄 kal sey khud ko motivate kr kr k spirits high ki hui thi..aaj sari motivation ka satiyanas ho giya😄 So, aaj cancel kr diya giya .inshaAllah subuh first time safar pey rawana hon gey.
hua yeh k subuh heart beat bilkul down ho gayi thi.. almost aik dairrh hours bey hosh rahey.. aur bad thing yeh thi k subuh subuh ka waqt tha, aur us waqt hmarey room main koi tha bhi nahi :| so thorra panic rahey hum... jab thorra hosh aya hmain, tab bhi sans lena bht mushkil tha, aisa feel hota tha jesey room methane gas sey bharra ho aur oxygen na ho room main.. khair, Koshish kr k 15 minutes tak hum ney forced breathing ki... us k bad jab achanak sis ayin hain room main, tou unhu ney hmari halat dekh k bp waghaiar check kiya, almost same condition thi, us trah ki jesey tab hua tha aur hum kafi arsa TM sey ghayab rahey they..lekin us waqt almost hum 8-9 ghentey raat k bey hosh rahey..subuh halka sa hosh aya aur again bey hosh ho gaye..tab condition kaafi khrab ho gayi thi.... lekin aaj Allah ka shukar hai jaldi normal ho gaye hum... shayad kal jo new medicine start ki thi, us ki wjha sey bachat ho gayi , Baqi Allah k kaam hain yeh tou...
lekin mood aaj kafi khush-gwaar hai -_- pta nahi q.. 😄😄Allah khair krain😁 aur hansi ki bat yeh k sab ab hmain apni nazron sey ojhal nahi honey dey rahey..aur hmain hansi aa rahi in ka behave dekh dekh k ... 😁
wesey ab darr bhi lagg raha thorra🥺pehley nahi lagta tha...lekin ab bht khof mehsoos hua aaj 🥺 k agr kuch minutes aur aapi room main naa aati tou .......... -_- shayad khof ki wjha yeh thi k hum ney decide jo kiya tha jeena😄kal ki baat yaad aa gayi hmain😄hum ney kaha tha naa aap ko, k jab koshish krni hai k ab khush rehna hai..aur life ko achey sey jeena hai tab hi kuch aisa wesa ho jana😂😁😁 isi wjha sey hum lift nahi krwatey they issey -_- lekin kafi depress condition rahi.aur shayd is bar family bhi darr rahi hmain bejhtey huey -_- aap ko mazey ki bat btayen 😁 hum na zuhar ki nmaz ka socha tou baba jaan hmain masalla waghaira bicha k wahan room main heater waghaira lga diya.. 🙄hmain thorra ajeeb sa laga ...mtlb hum hamesha drawing room main hi nmaz parrhtey hain.. 🙄 lekin khair. hum ney abhi half nnmaz bhi nahi parrhi ho gi , shayd farz k bad Ayat-ul-kursi parrhi ho gi k baba jaan ney aapi ko awaz di k main nmaz k liye ja raha hun, .. aur room sey bahir chaley gaye.. Aapi baqayida third floor sey aa k hmain kehtin, k jahan main hun, wahan nmaz parrho🙄hum ney kaha k aap jayen hum nmaz mukammal kr k hi ayen gey🙄 but she just hold my arms, k chalo 😳😳khair hum wahan chaley gaye.. aur hmain nmaz main hi feel ho k wo bar bar hmari traf dekh rahi hain,...😬nazrain mehsoos ho jati hoti hain naa...jab hum ney nmaz mukammal kr k aik slaam phaira, tou aapi foran kehtin shuakra hai parrh li nmaz 🙄 ab idhr aa jao..
hmain tou hansi aa gayi k kiya ho giya hai in logon ko -_- 😄aur baba baar baar, wahan raho, jahan sab hain 😄 ab bhi un k room main hi bethey hain -_- Wallaaaah... in logon ko shayd lag raha k hum parwaaz kr jayen gey😂khair kiitna boltey hain hum😁aaj mood kafi acha hai Alhamdulillah😁
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go and have proper treatment and come back with a broad smile on your face. May Allah Pak bless you with health and happiness, we will wait for you. You will be in our prayers all the time
Okay bro... Thank you so much :) InshaAllah aik do hafton ki bat bus.... -_- Allah behtar farmaney waley hain :) khair aaj shayd is wjha sey khushi ho rahi hmain k safar nahi krna parra😁kal ki kal dekhi jaye gi🥺
 

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kiya btayen aap ko ..😄 kal sey khud ko motivate kr kr k spirits high ki hui thi..aaj sari motivation ka satiyanas ho giya😄 So, aaj cancel kr diya giya .inshaAllah subuh first time safar pey rawana hon gey.
hua yeh k subuh heart beat bilkul down ho gayi thi.. almost aik dairrh hours bey hosh rahey.. aur bad thing yeh thi k subuh subuh ka waqt tha, aur us waqt hmarey room main koi tha bhi nahi :| so thorra panic rahey hum... jab thorra hosh aya hmain, tab bhi sans lena bht mushkil tha, aisa feel hota tha jesey room methane gas sey bharra ho aur oxygen na ho room main.. khair, Koshish kr k 15 minutes tak hum ney forced breathing ki... us k bad jab achanak sis ayin hain room main, tou unhu ney hmari halat dekh k bp waghaiar check kiya, almost same condition thi, us trah ki jesey tab hua tha aur hum kafi arsa TM sey ghayab rahey they..lekin us waqt almost hum 8-9 ghentey raat k bey hosh rahey..subuh halka sa hosh aya aur again bey hosh ho gaye..tab condition kaafi khrab ho gayi thi.... lekin aaj Allah ka shukar hai jaldi normal ho gaye hum... shayad kal jo new medicine start ki thi, us ki wjha sey bachat ho gayi , Baqi Allah k kaam hain yeh tou...
lekin mood aaj kafi khush-gwaar hai -_- pta nahi q.. 😄😄Allah khair krain😁 aur hansi ki bat yeh k sab ab hmain apni nazron sey ojhal nahi honey dey rahey..aur hmain hansi aa rahi in ka behave dekh dekh k ... 😁
wesey ab darr bhi lagg raha thorra🥺pehley nahi lagta tha...lekin ab bht khof mehsoos hua aaj 🥺 k agr kuch minutes aur aapi room main naa aati tou .......... -_- shayad khof ki wjha yeh thi k hum ney decide jo kiya tha jeena😄kal ki baat yaad aa gayi hmain😄hum ney kaha tha naa aap ko, k jab koshish krni hai k ab khush rehna hai..aur life ko achey sey jeena hai tab hi kuch aisa wesa ho jana😂😁😁 isi wjha sey hum lift nahi krwatey they issey -_- lekin kafi depress condition rahi.aur shayd is bar family bhi darr rahi hmain bejhtey huey -_- aap ko mazey ki bat btayen 😁 hum na zuhar ki nmaz ka socha tou baba jaan hmain masalla waghaira bicha k wahan room main heater waghaira lga diya.. 🙄hmain thorra ajeeb sa laga ...mtlb hum hamesha drawing room main hi nmaz parrhtey hain.. 🙄 lekin khair. hum ney abhi half nnmaz bhi nahi parrhi ho gi , shayd farz k bad Ayat-ul-kursi parrhi ho gi k baba jaan ney aapi ko awaz di k main nmaz k liye ja raha hun, .. aur room sey bahir chaley gaye.. Aapi baqayida third floor sey aa k hmain kehtin, k jahan main hun, wahan nmaz parrho🙄hum ney kaha k aap jayen hum nmaz mukammal kr k hi ayen gey🙄 but she just hold my arms, k chalo 😳😳khair hum wahan chaley gaye.. aur hmain nmaz main hi feel ho k wo bar bar hmari traf dekh rahi hain,...😬nazrain mehsoos ho jati hoti hain naa...jab hum ney nmaz mukammal kr k aik slaam phaira, tou aapi foran kehtin shuakra hai parrh li nmaz 🙄 ab idhr aa jao..
hmain tou hansi aa gayi k kiya ho giya hai in logon ko -_- 😄aur baba baar baar, wahan raho, jahan sab hain 😄 ab bhi un k room main hi bethey hain -_- Wallaaaah... in logon ko shayd lag raha k hum parwaaz kr jayen gey😂khair kiitna boltey hain hum😁aaj mood kafi acha hai Alhamdulillah😁
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Okay bro... Thank you so much :) InshaAllah aik do hafton ki bat bus.... -_- Allah behtar farmaney waley hain :) khair aaj shayd is wjha sey khushi ho rahi hmain k safar nahi krna parra😁kal ki kal dekhi jaye gi🥺
Koi baat nahi, aaj nahi to kal sahi, Allah pak aap ke haq mein behtary karey, iraada baandh lia hae to kar guzro, inshaAllah sab theek ho jaey ga... stay positive, you gonna be perfectly fine inshaAllah :)
 
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